Unraveling

 

In the 16 (almost 17 – oh dear…) years that I have been mothering children, I have discovered what I believe to be one of my favorite parts.  As my oldest son is now in his Junior year in high school, I am on pins and needles in eager anticipation to see what is going to happen next.  He is a great kid, we are truly blessed.  For whatever reason God has given me a peace concerning his future.  I see that it is open wide with possibilities.  He has only a small idea where he wants to go to school, what he might want to major in, or what he wants to do for a living.  All he knows he wants to do is play baseball.  🙂  I know there are some of you parents out there that probably think I’m crazy.  But, I am not pushing or stressing.  I know that I just turned 40 and I’m still not sure what I want to be “when I grow up”.  I know with confidence that God has BIG plans for this kid.  He is a great student, loves people, is full of passion, and is quite a competitor.  As my husband and I drove away from our visit to church camp this summer I expressed my excitement about the future.  “I am loving watching it all unravel!!”  The Bible tells us that God knew us before we were born, when we were in our mother’s womb, that He had a plan for us before we breathed our first breath.  In Psalm 139:19, The Bible says “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.”  I believe that with all my heart, and this is why I can without worry sit back and watch, eagerly waiting for God’s plan to “unravel”.  
I know…”unravel” is not typically the word used in this context, it might be used more often when things are going wrong.  But when I read the verse above in Psalms I think of God “knitting” a sweater around a newborn baby and over the years as He transforms, shapes, and refines that child the “sweater” is unraveling and His purpose is being fulfilled. 

 

Becoming a Christian as an adult, I understand how freeing it is to give the reigns to God.  Knowing that I am not in control allows me the freedom to not worry about tomorrow, or even the next minute.  I am a worrier by nature, I come from a long line of worriers…and I know what it can do to you, emotionally and physically.  So, knowing that God is in control of my tomorrows and those of my family allows me to sit back and watch to see what happens next.  What will the next chapter bring??

 

“The first offspring from every womb belongs to Me…”Exodus 34:19

 

This is the verse that caught my eye as I was reading my Bible this morning.  My husband and I have been in awe lately as the unraveling continues.  We can see the Lord’s blessing on our first-born son and we are amazed.  We know that God has big plans for all our children because that is what He says in His word, but it is just so amazing watching it happen.  We have no idea what that difference is or why.  Although after reading this, maybe this is the clue.  He is the first offspring from my womb, and he belongs to God…  I am breathless as to what that might mean…  I know he is in good hands, but still…. He belongs to God, end of story.  What is God going to do with him?
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First Day For Me….and Jesus Calling

Today was MY first day of school.  I am the director of our weekday program at church – Mother’s Day Out.  Today we welcomed around 140 children into our classrooms for the first time this year.  We survived!!  And, I can say with confidence that this was the best first day yet out of the five I’ve had as a director.  There were the usual tears (from kids and moms alike), bumps, and odd building issues (cricket invasion).  But there were a lot of happy, excited faces (kids, moms, and teachers).  Excited for their new adventure to begin.

This morning I woke up with a case of the first day jitters and headed straight to my favorite devotional that is my go-to especially when I am feeling a little overwhelmed.  “Jesus Calling” . It is written as if Jesus is speaking directly to you from His Word.  Every time I pick this up I feel like it was written just for me just on that day.  But, you know the awesome thing about God?  I have several friends who have this same devotional book and they feel exactly the same way!!  God is soo good.  Stress and worry has become so common these days, it’s just part of everyday life.  We have become used to it. 

A couple of weeks ago I was awake at 4am full of worry and stress and this is what I read:

“STOP WORRYING long enough to hear My voice.  I speak softly to you, in the depths of your being.  Your mind shuttles back and forth, hither and yon, weaving webs of anxious confusion.  As My thoughts rise up within you, they become entangled in those sticky webs of worry.  Thus, My voice is muffled and you hear only “white noise.”

Ask My Spirit to quiet your mind so that you can think My thoughts.  This ability is an awesome benefit of being My child, patterned after My own image.  Do not be deafened by the noise of the world or that of your own thinking.  Instead, be transformed by the renewing of your mind.  Sit quietly in My Presence, letting My thoughts reprogram your thinking.”

It seems that at those times we most need to hear from God are the times we are most stressed.  Our minds are so full of “anxious confusion” from our own thoughts of worry, our own efforts to problem solve, that we can’t hear the voice of God.  I wonder how many times we miss the blessings, take the wrong path, make the wrong choice, simply because we were too worried to simply pause and listen for God’s voice. 

The day that I read this was a day filled with lots of important decisions.  I needed to hear God’s voice.  I photocopied this page out of my devotional and hung it up in my office, so that throughout the day when my thoughts of worry began to create too much “white noise”, I prayed and asked the Holy Spirit to quiet my mind.  What a glorious power we have if we would only remember to use it. 

Today when I picked up my little book, there was a different message, but still a reminder that God is in our corner.  How amazing. 

I challenge you…”STOP WORRYING” long enough to hear His voice, and remember God is there for you…let Him fight your battles. 

 

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Me blog?

Why blog?
That is the question I have asked myself for months.  These are the answers that I came up with.
1)  I love to read blogs
2)  I like to write (weird I know but I do)
3)  To recount God’s blessings over our family

Really it’s all three.  I do love to write.  I do love reading about other people’s lives, but not in a weird creepy kind of way.  I like that it makes me feel normal.  How I’m not the only one who doesn’t like to spend oodles of money decorating their home.  How I’m not the only one who struggles to balance everything.  How I’m not the only one who makes mistakes and then laughs about it.  I love reading about how everyone else is just like me.  I think it is so cool that there are people out there I have never met who seem to get me!  Some days it is just the encouragement I need to get up and get going!

The last one, however, is the one that hooked me.  My husband and I have been riding this roller-coaster of life together for 18 years now. And the path that God has led us down has been winding and even bumpy at times. One of our favorite things to do when things get bumpy is to look back at where we’ve been, where God has brought us. Those are the times that God reveals pieces of His plan to us. It helps us to see why the bumps are there, and helps us to keep walking. So, I hope that as I blab on about day to day things on this blog, God will weave His glory and we will see His hand.

God continues to show Himself to me over and over again and I don’t want to forget any moment, so I’m jumping on the blogwagon.

So today I will start by telling you a little bit about us.  My husband and I have four children.  Three boys and one girl.    Our oldest son is 16, our oldest daughter is 14, the “little boys”, as I often refer to them even though they aren’t so little anymore, are 10 and 9 (no I’m not crazy they are 19 months apart).  I am the director, or the “principal” as the kids call me, of the mother’s day out and preschool program at our church.  Maybe from this description I don’t need to explain the “frazzled” part of my blog name, and hopefully I don’t have to explain the “joy” part either.  The joy is sprinkled throughout my day and is usually unexpected.  Whether it is a sweet smile from a child, or an encouraging, loving text from my husband.  Life is good.  God is good.  My husband is the Minister of Recreation and Community Outreach at our church.  He is the love of my life, a wonderful father, and a Godly man.  He also just started blogging!!  You can check him out here if you want.  🙂  I could ramble on for hours about each of the wonderful people in my life, but that will have to wait until another day.  For now I have just one last thing to share…my heart…

We have an awesome young lady who takes our family photos.  You can check out her talented self here.
Blessings to you until next time!!
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